02 04 2026

i spent the last weekend delirious and sick, fading in between small bouts of lucidity and anguish, lots of time to ruminate about everything. im definitley going through a time again. but my fiancee helped me a lot, i love her very much. i cant stop working myself up over small things i dont understand, ive been very depressed but too exhausted to get up and do anything about it. recent news hasnt helped shaked this feeling that nothing really matters. but i feel more hopeful this time

02 11 2026

damn i remembered what happened in kindergarden. my entire personality has been shaped by gettin TOUCHED ON!!!